Super Powers

INFJs feel emotions very intensely. Not only are my own emotions intense, but so is everyone else’s. It’s like when a super hero gets mind reading powers and can hear the thoughts of everyone around them all at once. It’s overwhelming. That is my life everyday. Instead of hearing words, I feel their emotions and I feel them so strongly, whether I want to or not. I can feel every bit of stress, anger and frustration that people keep pent up inside. If everyone around me is stressed, I’m stressed; even when I have nothing to be stressed out about. I can feel sadness and joy, too. I had a friend who lost her baby and I was sad about it for weeks. We aren’t super close, and we don’t even live in the same town. Yet, it was all I could think about. I hear a story on the news about an innocent child that was murdered, or see a picture of a starving, abused animal on facebook, and I feel immense sadness over it. INFJs take empathy to whole new level. We feel every bit of what you feel, whether you want us to or not. Sometimes it gets really confusing, trying to sort through which emotions actually belong to me and which ones don’t. It gets really loud in my mind, like having 5 radio stations on all at once. Not only am I dealing with my own thoughts and emotions, but I am constantly bombarded with everyone else’s too. It’s a blessing and a curse…but most of the time it feels like a curse. It’s a very exhausting existence. You’d think I’d be in tears everytime I watch the news, or see a sad movie, but not so. I have had quite a bit of practice dealing with such strong emotions; I can keep it all inside and without showing any trace of it on the outside. It’s become automatic. Sometimes I wish someone could break that wall down and save me from myself, but I have built a pretty damn strong wall. Other personality types simply don’t have the ability to see beyond walls and masks the way we do…which can be a good thing and bad thing. I have spent most of my life being misunderstood and called things like “dramatic” and “over-sensitive,” so I have learned from this that people cannot handle my emotions and I am better off dealing with them alone.

“So come here, oh, my star is fading
I swerved just out of reach
And I know I’m dead on the surface
But I’m screaming underneath” -Coldplay, “Amsterdam”

“Why, sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

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